It was a beautiful Saturday night. The sky was clear and the stars twinkled along. It felt like one of those nights when you knew something good was about to happen. I had no doubt about it because I was going to the best place in the world – Church.
I’ve been a devoted Christian my entire life. I neither drank, smoked nor fornicated. I had no idea why anyone would want to damage their body with those sinful acts. It made no sense. Anyway, we are all responsible for ourselves and I shouldn’t judge anyone.
I continued walking along the street, thinking about the practice I was going for. It was practice for the choir. I was going to take a lead solo in the next day’s service. I loved singing in the choir. It always elated my spirit. I felt like I was one with the higher powers any time I sang – which was a lot. I loved my life and will never give up my faith regardless of the temptation.
I must have been distracted by my thoughts because I didn’t see the man in front of me until I had bumped into him.
“I’m so sorry, sir.” I apologized, looking up at the face of the man I had accidentally hit.
I never should have done that because I don’t know what came over me in that moment. He looked around thirty-five with icy blue eyes. They drew me in. It was a sinful pull, I could tell. I said a short prayer and rebuked him right there. I wanted to turn around and leave but I couldn’t. Why couldn’t I?
He looked at me and smiled.
“It’s okay, young lady. You don’t have to apologize.”
I smiled at him in return and batted my eyelids in a seductive manner.
“My God, Bella! What has gotten into you?”
I couldn’t believe what I just did. I flirted with an actual breathing man. Why did I do that? Why did the sight of him make my nipples hard?
I don’t know if he read my thoughts but he was looking straight at my nipples when I looked at him again. They responded to him in a way filled with shameful lust. This time, I rebuked myself. I couldn’t let this happen. I had to stop this before it progressed into something worse. This had nothing to do with the devil. This was me letting myself get pulled in by an older man.
“A hot older man.”
I rebuked myself one more time. Then, I changed my mind about rebuking myself. Maybe if I just accepted the truth instead of denying it, I could overcome this temptation. It was a bad idea. As soon as I accepted the fact that he was hot, my nipples became even harder and pushed against the thin fabric of my chiffon blouse.
“Lord, you have beautiful breasts.” He said to me.
“Thank you.” I replied, my cheeks instantly flushing red.
My eyes widened immediately after. What had I done? I had just thanked someone for making an unrighteous comment about my breasts. But was he telling the truth? Were they really beautiful? Why was I blushing?
The stranger stretched out his hand and pinched my nipples. I gasped both from shock and from pleasure. Thank goodness people couldn’t read the thoughts of others. I would have been so ashamed of myself if he knew I also gasped from pleasure.
Who touches the nipples of a stranger on the street? Apparently, this middle aged man does. I looked around to see if anyone was looking. Thankfully, it was a lonely night and I didn’t spot anyone around. I looked back at the stranger and wondered why I hadn’t yelled at him for doing something so inappropriate yet. Perhaps it was because I totally enjoyed it.
“No! I didn’t enjoy it. It was the most sinful thing in the world!”
I knew I was over reacting. Yes, it was sinful but it wasn’t the most sinful thing in the world. This is what I hated most about sin. It lured you in slowly until you’re totally consumed in it. I won’t let it happen to me.
“You crossed the line, Mister!” I snapped.
Why is my head screaming at me to shut up? It must be the devil. I must fight against his antics.
The middle aged man looked at me and smiled.
“There’s a new place in town where all your sinful desires can become a reality. You will be free to explore lustful pleasures you never knew existed. No one will ever know. This place is shrouded in secrecy. I see it in your eyes. This place I speak of is perfect for you. I know what you hide behind that innocent look. I know what you do when you think no one is watching. Let it out. Be finally free.”
I couldn’t believe the words that were coming out of his mouth. How could he say these things to me? I felt like he saw right through my soul. I tried so hard to hide the dark cravings inside me, and I thought I succeeded… until he showed up.
“How do you know the things you speak about?” I asked in confusion.
“Let’s just say nothing is really a secret.” He replied.
“The place is called the VB and is just off St. Peters road. Get off at the three hundredth and seventy sixth precinct. Make your way into the woods off Harbor highway. There’s a green sign to let you know where to enter. I’ll be waiting for you.” He walked away after that.
What a cocky stranger. The word cocky made me think of his cock and I pushed the thought out of my mind immediately. It was clearly a device of the devil to stop me from going to church for practice. It was a good try but I won. I will never go anywhere close to that place in the woods.